What's my stupid feeling ?

Why do i feel down all the time?
Why do i always feel bad?
Why do i feel down for no reason?
Why ?

I've been being in moody state for the whole day .
And , I'm feeling confused that what I want ?







I hate holidays ,
I hate always stay at home ,
I hate living in boring life . 

You should know ,

what I'm speaking to you !

You should know that what I want to tell you !

You should know !

And why you kept asking me "what" ?!

Are you a guy ?

Or , 

you are not really want to know what I want to tell you ?

Disappointed to see a person like this .

:(

Every night  before I went to sleep ,

I used to pray that I wouldn't wake up in the morning and there is no one would miss me .

It's so sad that no one aware for your disappearance .

If I didn't find you ,

you will not take the initiative to find me ?

Aren't you ?

Yes , I really love you .

And ,

I‘m afraid to lose you .